Defeated By Love

After speaking, Shunen didn't care what his reaction was. She lowered her head and walked around him towards the cash register. Although he was exasperated, his mood was not at all comfortable.

He didn't hear the sound of following him again behind him.

It's been a long way.

Shunian suddenly thought of Xie Ruhe's legs, and paused, tightening the grip of the hand, and then let go. She felt that this kind of thought of herself was very bad, she was still angry because of his weird behavior, but when she thought of this——

You will feel that you are really angry at him, really shouldn't.

It was because of such desperate things that he was picked up by his grandfather and left Shiyan Town. Did something happen later? Then it became what it is now.

Shunen really hopes that he has lived a good life.

Even if it is not so good, at least it is not what it is now.

At a glance, you know that you are unhappy.

Shunian glanced back secretly.

Sure enough, it just didn't keep up.

She was inexplicably melancholy, staying in a stalemate with herself for a while, and resigned herself to walk back.

But Xie Ruhe is no longer in the original position.

Shunen stood there for half a minute, feeling a little bored, and left this area. She looked down at the phone, and when she raised her head, she happened to see Xie Ruhe coming from the snack area.

Shunian was stunned.

Unlike just now, Xie Ruhe now had five or six packs of things in his arms besides the pack of sanitary napkins that Shunian threw to him. The volume of a bag is not small, it is piled up in his arms, and it looks like a contrast and cuteness.

Shunen is very familiar with the packaging, which is the mango-flavored jelly that she has always liked.

Xie Ruhe moved the wheelchair with one hand, holding the candy in the other. One was unstable and dropped a bag to the ground.

With a click, he rolled between the two.

Shunian walked to him, picked up the candy first, and handed it to him.

Xie Ruhe lifted his thin eyelids, looked at her, and took it in silence.

Shunian stood upright, but not much taller than he was in a wheelchair. She lowered her head and apologized first: "Sorry, I just said nonsense."

Xie Ruhe didn't keep silent anymore, his voice was hoarse and slightly heavy, unlike the youthful voice of the past.

"what."

Shunian didn't look at him, pointed at the pack of sanitary napkins in his hand, and whispered: "I didn't think you wanted to use that."

Xie Ruhe: "..."

Shunian was still standing in front of him, looking downcast, and stopped talking. He was motionless, as if he wouldn't leave without his forgiveness.

Xie Ruhe did not stalemate with her: "I know."

Shunen's expression was obviously relaxed, and he looked at him again: "Are you still going to buy something?"

Xie Ruhe said lightly: "No need."

Shunian thought for a while, and proposed: "Then we shall pay together?"

Xie Ruhe paused and nodded.

The two went to one of the lines at the cash register, lined up one after the other.

Not a talkative person, Shunian didn't talk to him again, and Xie Ruhe didn't take the initiative to speak. The two remained unspeakably embarrassed, like real strangers.

Shunian stood in front, never looking back at him. She paid the money first, and then stood by and waited for him.

Notice that the cashier picked up the pack of sanitary napkins, ready to scan the barcode. Shunen suddenly reacted and said to the cashier for him: "Hello, don't do this."

The cashier paused and looked at Xie Ruhe: "No more?"

Xie Ruhe hesitated and said, "I want it."

"..."

"What did you buy?" Shunen turned to look at him with a puzzled expression, "Did you really buy it?"

Xie Ruhe avoided her sight and hummed unnaturally.

When he took the bag from the cashier, the two walked towards the escalator. Shunen still felt a little strange, and soon figured out: "Oh, did you buy it for your girlfriend?"

Hearing this, Xie Ruhe moved the wheelchair's hand and stopped, and stopped in place.

Perceived with Yu Guang, Shunian turned his head: "What's wrong?"

Xie Ruhe's eyes were lowered, as if thinking about something, there was no movement for a long time. Then, he suddenly lifted the bag in his hand and handed it to her: "Here you are."

Shunian was stunned: "Give it to me?"

Xie Ruhe nodded and repeated: "Here you are."

"Why give it to me?" Shunen was at a loss, but noticed that the bag was transparent. He seemed embarrassed to hold it, so he had to say, "Then I will take this out."

In addition to the pack of sanitary napkins, there are five packs of mango jelly in the bag.

Xie Ruhe shook his head: "I will give it to you."

This time he stopped waiting for Shunen's response, and put the bag directly into her hand. The fingertips touched her palm, shuddered slightly, then quickly retracted, and then walked to the front on his own.

Shunen stood there for a few seconds, his expression still dull.

When I was familiar with it before, Xie Ruhe didn't understand what Xie Ruhe was thinking. Now that all these years have passed, the feelings have become divergent, and she is even more puzzled by his actions.

Shunian didn't think about it anymore, followed up and asked, "How are you going back?"

Xie Ruhe didn't answer, but instead asked: "How are you going back."

"I take the subway."

"Great."

It didn't say how he responded. Shunian glanced at him, and said nothing.

However, Xie Ruhe saw her full hands. After a moment of silence, he took the initiative: "I'll help you get them."

Shunen shook his head: "No."

Hearing this answer, Xie Ruhe's expression halted, his eyes deepened, and his mood became obviously worse. He squeezed the bag in his hand, his voice was very soft, with a little coolness: "Why."

Not knowing why he suddenly became unhappy, Shunen whispered, "What and why."

His expression was dark: "Do you think I can't help you."

Shunen couldn't hear clearly: "What?"

The two happened to be out of the supermarket gate.

The gale blew, melted into the night, and shuttled among the crowd.

Xie Ruhe didn't mention the words just now, his black eyes seemed to be mixed with ink, deep and sinking. He raised his head, showing an inferior posture for the first time.

"Shunen."

This was the first time he called her name after meeting again.

Shunen stopped and said in doubt: "What's wrong."

Xie Ruhe carried the light on his back, his entire face buried in the dark, but his eyes were bright and clear. He curled his lips, his voice was obscure: "Why don't you ask me why my legs become like this."

"I don't think you necessarily want to say it." Shunen's hand holding the bag tightened, a little at a loss, and his heart seemed to be pinched, breathless. "Moreover, that would not be a good memory. Yes. Gradually it gets better, that's it."

If someone came to ask her, why did she become like this.

Shunen would not want to say.

That is a very bad memory.

She would not want to revisit it again.

"Gradually it's getting better..." Xie Ruhe's Adam's apple rolled, his eyes dimmed, as if he had recognized reality, and his voice became low and dumb, "Shu Nian, I am different from you."

Shunian didn't mind, "Is someone coming to pick you up?"

Xie Ruhe did not confirm or deny. Then, I finally said the reason why I have been following her today: "The call you made yesterday belonged to me. If you need help in the future, you can find me."

"..."

He also said something, his voice was so low that Shunen could not hear it clearly.

Shunen still wants to ask.

Xie Ruhe turned around and walked in another direction without even saying goodbye.

Shunian was carrying a large bag of things, borrowed a shared bicycle next to him, and rode all the way to the subway station. It takes about 15 minutes to get to the subway station near her house from this station.

It takes only ten minutes to walk home.

It was early, and the shops on the street were still open. The neon lights and street lights are bright, and you can hear the laughter of couples and the shouts of vendors. The colorful night market is particularly lively.

Shunian bought a sauce-flavored biscuits nearby, and then headed towards his own community.

Along the way, she kept thinking about Xie Ruhe's words.

It feels a little inexplicable, and therefore feels a little depressed and unhappy. Shunian didn't know where his unhappiness came from, obviously his words didn't carry any malice.

Although he lied to her on the phone, he was still so confident.

She no longer thinks about this.

Begin to recall what Xie Ruhe said last sentence.

That mouth shape...

Shunen is accustomed to lip-synching, and the memory is not bad.

Thinking like this at this time, Xie Ruhe should have said seven words.

But what he said was really vague, and the opening of his lips and teeth was not obvious. Shunian didn't understand lip language and really didn't know what he was talking about.

Shunian was fine, and kept talking in his mouth along the way.

When she got downstairs, Shunian looked around and made sure that there was no one around, so she hurried up to the second floor, quickly opened the door and locked it.

She was panting, and the whisper that had been muttering sounded at this moment: "Don't be bullied by others."

Shunian was stunned and repeated it, still not believing it. I only feel that Xie Ruhe would not say such things, but these words completely overlapped with his mouth.

Shunen froze for a while.

Soon, I followed my usual habits, inspecting doors and windows, cooking quick-frozen dumplings, taking a bath, washing clothes, practicing mouth shape on TV, reading scripts... When the study was over, it was almost the early morning of the next day.

She turned on the bright light, lying on the bed and playing with her mobile phone.

Thinking of the name he heard in the toilet today, Shunen scratched his face and hesitated for a few seconds. She opened the browser and typed "Ahe" in the search bar.

Shunen doesn't pay much attention to this aspect and rarely listens to songs.

Looking at the display on Baidu, she knew that Ahe is a very popular independent musician in recent years.

Since five years ago, he has published his work on the Internet platform.

The first album released is called "Wu Nian", because there is no promotion channel, there are basically no fans in the early stage. But he didn't seem to care about these, so he indulged himself in his own world.

"Uncontrollable" in the second album was played by a certain popular game anchor during the live broadcast, and was gradually discovered by others and became less famous.

With the publication of each album, his reputation grew.

In the past two years, I basically stopped singing. Behind the scenes, concentrate on creating. Most of the names appear in other people's albums. They are the composer, arranger, and occasional lyrics.

Shunian pursed her lips and played the song "It's Hard to Control".

The prelude is not long, the style is lyrical and melancholic, and all kinds of noise can be heard, and I don't know what it is. Soon, the hustle and bustle fell silent. In this silence, Ahe's voice rang.

Shunen's eyelashes moved.

As she thought, it was Xie Ruhe.

His voice stretched along the rhythm, low and ethereal, and every word brought dark and desperate emotions. The breath is shallow, the music is like a human, neat and clean. When singing, the voice recognition is extremely high.

Surrounded by such gloomy songs, Shunen's mood improved.

Shunen gradually became sleepy in his voice.

Before falling into deep sleep.

Shunian inexplicably remembered the words Xie Ruhe said.

— "I am different from you."

...

Several days have passed since Li Hong entered the hospital.

Because of his subjective and reckless actions and words, Shunen reflected on it for many days. In the end, I reluctantly reached a conclusion that I felt that I was too young and could not consider many things thoroughly, which is worthy of forgiveness.

She emphasized this conclusion dozens of times to herself every day.

But the brainwashing hadn't succeeded, and this was broken by Chen Hanzheng in the same class.

Chen Hanzheng had a good relationship with Li Hong's son Li Chao, and then Chen Hanzheng came to talk to Shunian all day. Just let Shunen know one thing-before Li Hong entered the hospital, the brakes of that bicycle had failed.

There were good times and bad times, and Li Hong didn't fix it in order to save money.

When Chen Han was saying this, he was still holding a pen in his mouth and sneered: "Fate is really not for him. All the money saved is spent in the hospital, and it's **** good to post it. I'm the first time. I see someone who has this hobby and likes to spend money to suffer."

Shunen was silent.

Chen Han was feeling abnormal. As usual, she would frown and tell him not to use dirty words. But at the moment he didn't say a word.

Chen Han is feeling a little crisis: "What's the matter with you?"

Shunen looked up: "?"

"Cold me!" Chen Han was shouting, "Why don't you scold me anymore! Have you changed your heart! Have you not loved me anymore! I **** don't listen!!!"

"..."

Shunian was very worried, and was in no mood to pay attention to him. But she retorted his words seriously: "I never scolded you, I was teaching you."

"..."

"Also, change your heart, love, love and love." Shunen frowned. "How old are you and what's in your head are all these insignificant things."

This time Chen Han was silent.

For a long time, because he was speechless, he twitched his mouth with joy: "It really is what they said, a thirteen-year-old woman. I have learned a lot."

Shunen ignored him, lying on the tabletop and looking out the window.

I don't know what I'm thinking.

After a long while, Shunen suddenly noticed a group of teenagers running on the playground. They were wearing blue and white striped school uniforms. She suddenly raised her eyes to look at Chen Hanzheng, with a thoughtful expression.

Chen Hanzheng was inexplicably vague: "Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh? Do not look at me like that.

Shunen opened his eyes, thinking about the appearance of the "most beautiful junior high school student", and asked him: "Do you know the name of the best-looking boy in our school? I don't know which grade it is."

Hearing this, Chen Han was immediately bringing his face to her, rubbing the tip of his nose with his fingers.

"know."

Shunen cheered up instantly: "Who?"

Chen Han was lifting his lips and said with a grin: "It's me."

Shunen did not support him, frowned: "Did you not hear clearly."

"Ok?"

Shunen is very serious and has no intention of joking at all.

"I'm talking about good-looking ones."

Chen Hanzheng: "..."