I Am Not Fit to Be the Male Lead’s First Love

Chapter 44 – Shameless (3)

Chu Yin pulled away. “What are you doing? I’m not going.”

Her hair was wet and messy. She didn’t want to be seen at all.

And she didn’t want people to see her wrapped in his clothes. If she was seen, she would be bullied again by those people.

Lu Zhen lowered his head and took a breath to calm himself down. When he finally looked up, his tone was still a bit fierce.

—”Who the hell did it?”

Chu Yin was stunned.

Lu Zhen wasn’t playing around. Chu Yin couldn’t sit up by herself so he (LZ) stretched out his hand for her to take.

Chu Yin got up from the ground, unexpectedly showing a trace of confusion.

Lu Zhen’s voice was a little lower now. He lifted the hairs on her wet forehead, wrapped the coat tightly, and whispered to her, “Follow me?”

Chu Yin still didn’t move.

“Chu Yin,” Lu Zhen lowered his eyes to look at her, “What are you afraid of?”

“Who’s afraid? I’m not afraid,” Chu Yin caught a cold from the freezing water. She said while sounding a little nasally, “They’re only afraid of you.” 

The 17-year-old girl raised her eyes. Even if she was in a mess, it was as bright as a star.

Lu Zhen looked at her deeply for a long time. He lowered his head and cursed. His tone was a little raspy, “Then what the hell do you want me to do?”

“I don’t need anyone’s protection, especially from you, Lu Zhen – someday I will become strong enough. Do you believe it or not?”

One day.

Chu Yin, who was leaning on the back of the car’s backseat, suddenly opened her eyes.

At that time, she had no confidence. She could only boast by saying the phrase ‘someday’. It took a lifetime for it to come true.

At the end of the dream, the reckless teenager had become a paranoid man.

He repeated it over and over again in her ear, like a mad man: “Don’t go, don’t leave…”

His voice was hoarse. For a moment, she couldn’t distinguish who was more desperate, the person who heard it or the person who said it.

—Chu Yin chose to not remember anymore.

The later the memories, the more unbearable they become.

Who could have imagined that the enthusiastic teenager would eventually become a murderer of her freedom?

Chu Yin lowered her long eyelashes.

Everything in this life was different. Lu Zhen was also different from her last life.

But she knew. It was not Lu Zhen that had changed, but her.

And she had to make a difference.

Even if Lu Zhen’s behavior changed, she shouldn’t be shaken.

Since the dog man didn’t come to disturb her, Chu Yin was able to study in peace. She didn’t think about other things for a few days.

If life goes on like this, it seems pretty good.

Unfortunately, after school that day, Pei Ziyin appeared at the school gate again. Chu Yin knew that this world was still that world, and there would always be strange people appearing.

Pei Ziyin changed the sports car he was riding every time he visited Chu Yin – in a sorrowful attempt to show off that he was excellent in all aspects.

Chu Yin carried her school bag and sighed. I really want to hit someone.

As Lu Zhen followed from behind, walking out of the school building, he saw this scene.

Chu Yin’s fair face was tense. Standing in the gentle afterglow of the setting sun, the boy in front of her shook his head.

Lu Zhen could tell at a glance that the person standing in front of her was the person in the photo that day.

At that time he was sitting very closely next to Chu Yin.

Lu Zhen’s pupils slowly darkened.

A kind of restlessness suddenly rose from his heart, bringing out extreme anger in his dark eyes.

The pain he felt that night was different from this.

No one knew the moment they shared that time. It was a secret connection between him and her. Even the pain he felt was something they shared.

He didn’t care if she thought of him as despicable.

Even if she didn’t like him.

Chu Yin’s dislike for him should only be for him. It shouldn’t be shared with anyone else.

…

Chu Yin was frustrated with Pei Ziyin because of his persistent actions.

“I didn’t say anything to you. I just want to study.”

Pei Ziyin: “What are the qualities that I have that you’re dissatisfied with? Your classmate said that there are many students in this school that are better than me. In what aspect? I–”

He hadn’t finished his sentence when he was suddenly grabbed by the collar and pulled back.

Pei Ziyin let out a ‘What the fuck’ before being slammed away. When he turned around to curse, “You motherfucker–”

He was faced with Lu Zhen’s stare.

Pei Ziyin’s voice suddenly choked in his throat—Lu Zhen?!

He can yell at anyone except Lu Zhen. The livelihood of the Pei family depends on the Lu family.

Pei Ziyin’s voice awkwardly turned a corner as he gave a dry smile, “This…brother Zhen? Is there something I can do for you?”

Lu Zhen’s icy voice sounded: “Something..”

Pei Ziyin looked stupid in front of Lu Zhen. He felt chills from his back, thinking how he offended him.

But under Lu Zhen’s gaze, he dared not say a word. He jumped into his sports car and drove away.

“…” Chu Yin also wanted to leave.

After she refused Lu Zhen’s confession, this was the first time they faced each other.

The young man’s expression was a little dazed. He didn’t seem to have slept well recently. 

After being stared at by Chu Yin, Lu Zhen’s heart became uncontrollable again.

Fragmented dreams and reality were intertwined. His nerves felt like it was being cut by a knife. Although his brain was hurting, he forced himself to smile, “Sorry.”

Jealousy is ugly. But he couldn’t hold it back.

Chu Yin frowned as she looked at him.

She didn’t know why, but she vaguely felt that there was something wrong with Lu Zhen.

Lu Zhen’s heart began to curl up. His fingertips slightly trembled.

He wanted to confirm something.

“Chu Yin.” Lu Zhen whispered her name. He then raised his arm and spread his palm.

The two candies in his hand reflected under the setting sun.

One strawberry flavor, one coconut flavor.

In their ‘reality’, he didn’t know Chu Yin’s preferences.

But in the ‘fragments’ of his dreams, he knew that Chu Yin liked things with coconut flavor.

Lu Zhen badly wanted to know.

If those memories were true.

If his pain and regret were real.

Chu Yin couldn’t figure out his intentions. Her delicate eyebrows frowned, “I don’t want it.”

Lu Zhen tightly covered his crazy and repressed emotions. His lips curled, “Not in the options.”

There was no need to pretend now. He had already confessed his deepest thought.

Chu Yin was annoyed: “Lu Zhen, are you shameless?!”

“No,” Lu Zhen laughed. His voice trembled uncontrollably, “Strawberry or coconut? Pick one before you go.”

Just one.

Chu Yin glared at him, slapping the other hand to take the candy.

“Okay now?”

Lu Zhen lowered his eyes and looked at the strawberry candy flavor left in his palm.

His eyes burned red, slowly clenching the candy.

“Yes, it’s fine.”