I Attacked Because I Was Afraid Of Death

Because all the supplies were in Chi Xin’s space, Jing Xiubai often came to see her these past few days to get some guns, ammunition, medicine, or food. Including the ability drug and the last thing he had stuffed her with, Chi Xin had handed everything over to him.
Therefore, when she heard he was looking for her, she was not too surprised. She nodded and turned back to the target.
“Wait for a while, I will talk after I finish training.” Chi Xin’s energy came back, she had to hit the bullseye at least once!
Bang, bang.
Two more shots were fired and this time, the target swayed weakly before falling down.
Chi Xin: …

Jing Xiubai’s muffled laughter came from behind her. Chi Xin picked up her hair and turned around helplessly: “What do you need?”
Jing Xiubai didn’t rush to reply and stared at her fried hair before walking to her.
“You are really special. Obviously, you can hit but it looks like you have never held a gun in your life.”
Jing Xiubai used his hand like a gun, widened his feet slightly, moved his center of gravity, and assumed a standard shooting posture. He looked at Chi Xin with a tilted head: “Try it this way.”
Chi Xin felt a little guilty; she feared the hero would suspect her of something and seeing him start a shooting lesson, a flash of joy flashed in her eyes and she took his advice seriously. She imitated his posture and asked: “Like this?”
Jing Xiubai stretched out his hand and raised her elbow: “That’s it.”
Chi Xin nodded seriously and looked at the target on the ground, imagining it was a zombie ready to pounce. Facing the fear in her heart, Chi Xin’s hand moved and she pressed the trigger.
Bullseye.
Jing Xiubai glanced at her in surprise: “Are you really so bored you come here to play?”
Had she missed all those shots deliberately?
Chi Xin looked away with shame. She looked at the gun in her hand thoughtfully; the feeling that had flashed just now was still there, it seemed that this attack skill didn’t need her to be passive to be activated.

Seeing that she didn’t answer, Jing Xiubai didn’t insist. His hand took something out of his pocket and he opened his palm in front of Chi Xin, showing a few familiar bullets.
“Those are special bullets I made. Fortunately, in the medicine we found that day, some contained something similar to biological cannonballs.”
What an awesome guy, he really deserved to be the son of the boss of Base A’s research institute. He could even make bullets under such simple conditions!
Chi Xin sighed and didn’t understand his meaning. Did he want to show off to the vicious female character…?

Looking at her confused face, Jing Xiubai couldn’t hold a gentle expression anymore: “What’s wrong?”
Chi Xing scratched her cheek, looking up at him with questions in her gaze, and tentatively said: “… so amazing?”
The corners of his mouth rose on their own and Jing Xiubai tried to quickly press them down.
“Ah.” He pushed his glasses back, “It’s for you. If you encounter something too strong, you can get twice the result with half the effort.”
Chi Xin stared at the bullets in amazement. Could such good items be handed to her?
With her wide eyes, she looked like a little squirrel and Jing Xiubai coughed lightly to cover up the smile that was desperately trying to escape.

“I found the raw materials in the medical supplies we got from the armory.” He took Chi Xin’s hand and dropped the bullets in her palm before adding warmly, “Only you can maximize the effect.”
Chi Xin was embarrassed: “Actually, Rong Feng can do it. So can Yu Xiang. And then again, you are also quite powerful.”
She was obviously so strong, far beyond human imagination, but faced with praise, she felt too humble and flustered. Perhaps Yu Xiang was right, if Chi Xing could desperately try to save people and find medicine regardless of danger, she should not be the kind of person that would steal other people’s things and pendants. Perhaps it was just like she said, everything had been an accident.

Jing Xiubai’s gaze softened, but after thinking of something a complicated expression showed on his face. He hesitated for a moment and decided to be honest: “Chi Xin, there is something else I should tell you.”
Chi Xin was still fiddling with the bullets and asked without raising her head: “Ah? What is it?”
Jing Xiubai tried to organize his thoughts: “The box Yu Xiang found contains a drug able to stimulate human potential. This is how I got my ability.”
Strong disgust and hatred flashed in his eyes. Noticing Chi Xin’s movements had stopped, it instantly disappeared: “There is only one injection. I don’t know what potential it will stimulate neither do I know if there will be side effects.”

Chi Xin was surprised the hero would actually tell her about it. In the movie, the protagonists had never trusted Chi Xin and she found the situation rather funny. Hadn’t she seen the movie, she would have believed he cared.
The hero had not gotten much information at this time and he did not have a good impression of this medicine. In his eyes, the drug represented sin and death.

Jing Xiubai looked at her with imperceptible tension: “Chi Xin…”
“Give it to Yu Xiang or Jiang Congyun.” Chi Xin raised her head, “The two of them are weak, their chances at staying alive will get better with some supernatural abilities.”
I’m sorry! Chi Xin apologized in her heart, in order to express she was not interested, she had wronged them both.

Jing Xiubai couldn’t control his stunned expression. Chi Xin’s face was calm, not drooling nor showing any desire, only saying she would give away the medicine that all mankind would fight for. Not only that, but it also felt she was feeling too much trouble at being asked and a vague sense of disgust.
Jing Xiubai couldn’t figure her out and after a pause, he said: “This drug may stimulate supernatural abilities, do you really not want it?”
Chi Xin glanced at him as if he was talking nonsense: “I don’t need it.”
Jin Xiubai looked at her calm yet slightly impatient face and the tension in his heart suddenly loosened. It was the kind of relief he had felt a few times before, such as when Chi Xin had hugged his arm,  when she had dragged him away from the battle, or when she had looked at him and not at anyone else… But at this exact moment, this relief was so strong he was a little surprised.

“Anyway, just give it to them, you can discuss it between yourselves.” When she saw the hero was frozen in place, she thought he didn’t understand her meaning and she emphasized: “Death and life have their determined appointments, riches and honors depend upon heaven1.”
Jing Xiubai suddenly laughed: “Then let’s give it to Jiang Congyun, Yu Xiang is not as weak as you think.” He paused again and asked: “Is that okay?”
“If Yu Xiang does not mind.” Chi Xin didn’t know why the hero was asking her and she felt as though her head could explode. She just wanted to do her mission, she didn’t want to participate in the protagonist group’s grudges and feud.

In the movie however, the drug had indeed been given to Jiang Congyun and Chi Xin became afraid something would deviate from the original plot.
“Good idea. I took her space, she needs more life-saving skills.”
She spoke earnestly, as if she was really eager to give the injection to Jiang Congyun, not caring about the previous signs of the heroine targeting her. Jing Xiubai lowered his gaze and a hint of tenderness appeared in his voice: “Okay.”

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Chi Xin practiced her marksmanship for a few more days and her trouble value kept dropping down. She couldn’t do anything about the system for the time being and had to take out the paper where she had recorded all of the movie’s major events, before studying how to cause some trouble.
She put a lollipop in her mouth and slid the tip of her finger on the paper. According to the timeline, the heroine should have started awakening her healing power and the next thing the vicious female character should be doing was…
Her finger suddenly stopped as she reached a line.
Slip out of the base in the middle of the night and provoke zombies. Cry and send out a distress signal, causing the second male lead to come to rescue her and get injured.
Uh-oh.