Omega Allergy

Chapter 90 - No one loves me more than him

It is unknown when his consciousness disappeared.

Yeri didn't know when he disappeared.

When Pei Yechen woke up, he was swallowed by his inner guilt, then buried his head in his knees deeply, covered his face with his hands, and trembled all over.

What have I done...

Why is it uncontrolled like that? He seems to have become another person.

Turns out that fever would make an Omega lose his mind, and it wasn't just an anecdotal bluff.

It turns out that Omegas are really not suitable for a commander who needs to keep calm at all times on the battlefield.

It turned out that the dormant desires in his heart were so gloomy, so degenerate, and so dark.

It turned out to be…

It turned out that he had been deceiving himself.

The most terrible thing is that he actually felt that it was a good feeling to release those darkness. He didn't need to feel ashamed, he didn't need to feel wrong, there was no restraint, and showing the truth without reservation.

He seemed to be getting a little weird.

"You're awake." The door of the room suddenly opened, and Pei Yechen raised his head immediately, only to see Chu Yu slowly coming in through the door.

Seeing Chu Yu, he suddenly recalled everything he had experienced before, and he was a little shameless for a while.

He avoided Chu Yu's gaze and nodded: "Yes...why are you here?"

Chu Yu frowned slightly, then sighed: "The battle fleet... You are the only one left."

Pei Yechen's heart was shocked.

"You... what did you say?!"

Chu Yu looked into Pei Yechen's eyes and said, "The seven hundred battleships we dispatched were ambushed by the Zerg. Only you came back alive without any wounds on your body."

This is a very significant statement.

Pei Yechen was instantly alert: "What do you mean? Are you suspecting that I cooperated with the Zerg?"

Chu Yu shook his head: "It's better to say that this is what the Zerg wanted me to suspect." Then he cut an apple for Pei Yechen and handed it to Pei Yechen's mouth, "We're not so easy to deceive."

Pei Yechen didn't know what Chu Yu's intention was. If he had no doubts, then why should he emphasize it?

After thinking for a moment, Pei Yechen asked, "Did you give me a full body check?"

"I did." Chu Yu replied, "I even checked your memory area, and there is no problem with the memory function."

"Physically... Is there anything..." Pei Yechen pursed his mouth into a line, as if he was a little hard to say.

Chu Yu glanced at him, then interrupted him: "Everything is normal."

"..." Pei Yechen read something from Chu Yu's eyes almost immediately, and then said, "The last thing before I closed my eyes was the Zerg army emerging from the black vortex, and then I lost consciousness."

"Yes, Chi Yan can prove that since all records are in Chi Yan's black box." Chu Yu said again.

The two words Chu Yu said really pulled him back from the brink of danger.

It's too dangerous, it's almost reminding him that someone is monitoring this room, and it also indirectly shows that Chu Yu must have found something wrong, but Chu Yu intends to keep it secret for him.

Thinking of the scene when Yeri eroded his consciousness, Pei Yechen was ashamed and guilty in front of Chu Yu.

Humans are tangled and complicated contradictions.

He acknowledged what Yeri had said, and he had been suppressing some dark, twisted thoughts.

He also admitted that Yeri had pointed out that he liked Shen Jingheng and was jealous of Chu Yu.

Yeri magnified his dark side infinitely, and attributed all his struggles and restraint to hypocritical disguise, but he did not say that he admired Chu Yu from the bottom of his heart.

His appreciation for Chu Yu also came from the heart.

Pei Yechen took Chu Yu's apple and took a bite in his mouth. The sweetness of the apple exploded in his mouth, subtly bringing him back to reality from the vast universe.

His throat was sore, but he couldn't bite the apple again.

His body trembled slightly, and the tears fell down on the apple, which happened to flow into his mouth, which tasted salty.

Seeing this, Chu Yu stood up: "You should sort yourself first, then, I'll go out first."

After Chu Yu went out, Pei Yechen burst into tears.

He couldn't define who he was, and sometimes he felt hopelessly bad, and sometimes he wasn't, what is good and evil, what is instinct and restraint... as if he'd been messed up.

So the question finally returns to the three major questions of philosophy.

Who am I, where do I come from, where do I go?

There seems to be a problem with his emotional processing mechanisms, and if he can't sort out these problems, he won't even be able to find the motivation to live.

For a soldier, this is dangerous. He knew it.

For a superior, this is extremely dangerous. He is even more aware.

But he didn't want to give up what he had worked so hard to achieve, and he didn't want to easily deny his powerlessness, and he didn't want to admit that he was defeated by his own instinctive desire in the battle with the cerebral worm.

This is really bad.

Wanting everything when you have nothing to show for it.

How despicable.

Shameless. He deserved to enjoy the support of his peers, but he was almost brainwashed by a cerebral worm.

After crying, Pei Yechen made a decision.

He resigned as an aviation piloting department general, saying he couldn’t live up to the trust of his subordinates.

But this request was not granted.

Shen Jingheng sought for him personally.

Seeing Shen Jingheng's face, the familiar feeling of depravity emerged from his body like a brand.

He gathered up his emotions and tried hard not to make himself look gaffe: "Marshal."

Shen Jingheng took him to a private meeting room where they can have a private conversation, and straight to the point: "You've seen the cerebral worm, right?"

Pei Yechen felt a sense of loss in his heart. It was just business.

"Yes."

"After seeing the cerebral worm, you resigned on the grounds that you couldn’t live up to the trust of your subordinates, and left all the rest of the work arrangement...Did I teach you that?" Shen Jingheng's tone was very cold, even a little sullen.

Shen Jingheng's words were heartfelt, and Pei Yechen pursed his lips before answering, "I'm sorry, I've broken your trust."

"I didn't come to hear your apology." Shen Jingheng looked into Pei Yechen's eyes, "What did the cerebral worm do to you to make my best soldier suddenly lose the will to fight."

His best soldier.

Does he fit?

Pei Yechen smiled self-deprecatingly: "It made me face my true desires honestly, that's all."

"That's all?" Shen Jingheng frowned slightly. "The cerebral worm killed all your subordinates, and let you face your true desires frankly, and then let you go? Pei Yechen, absurd movies don't make up stories like you do. "

"Yes, it's absurd." Pei Yechen sneered, "I also think it's absurd, why am I the one who survived, why am I not the general who died in battle, why should I be tortured and humiliated like this, why should you let me explain everything I can't explain?"

Shen Jingheng sharply grasped the point: "What did the cerebral worm say to you?"

"Don't ask, I don't want to talk about it." Pei Yechen disobeyed Shen Jingheng for the first time, and was quite self-loathing.

Shen Jingheng directly came to the conclusion: "That is to say, the cerebral worm can read the mind, and even know the flaws in your mind."

"..." Pei Yechen smiled weakly, this man was so good at all times, even if he was vague, the man could keenly find clues.

"Yes."

"It seems that you really need to rest." Shen Jingheng seemed to have a little concern in his eyes, "This is a very important message, if even a general who has undergone psychological training can't resist this kind of mental attack, our ordinary soldiers are even less likely."

After finishing speaking, Shen Jingheng stepped forward and patted Pei Yechen on the shoulder: "It's hard work, I will find a way to deal with it."

Shen Jingheng was about to leave, but Pei Yechen didn't know where his courage came from, and suddenly asked, "Don't you want to ask me what the flaw in my heart is?"

"That's your secret." Shen Jingheng replied with his back turned, "If you don't want to say it, I won't force you to say it, I believe you won't do anything that harms the Protoss, and won't join the Zerg just from a mental attack… because you are Pei Yechen."

Pei Yechen's heart shuddered.

"You are the best subordinate I personally cultivated and one of the reasons why I believe we can win."

Pei Yechen's eyes were hot, and two lines of tears rolled down again and hit the ground.

Whether it is Chu Yu or Shen Jingheng, they have the same trust in him. Chu Yu is carefully protecting him, and Shen Jingheng is also affirming him.

"Shen Jingheng..." Pei Yechen suppressed the sourness in his throat, and his voice was a little stubborn and self-respecting.

"Remember to report to the officer when you talk to him." Shen Jingheng was still cold, but Pei Yechen was moved to tears.

"I'm not talking to the officer, it's a private conversation."

Shen Jingheng turned his head slowly and saw Pei Yechen's face.

Pei Yechen looks very attractive.

He doesn't look as weak as the average Omega, there is always a sense of righteousness between his eyebrows, his eyes are always very firm, and his silver hair shows that he is an excellent pure-blood Omega.

The most important thing is that Pei Yechen should have been, in World No. 520, his original wife.

At this moment, Pei Yechen looked at him with firm and tearful eyes, and said to him, "I love you very much."

The word used is directly "love", not "like".

Shen Jingheng replied calmly: "You should know that I love my wife."

Pei Yechen burst into tears and smiled: "I just want you to know that I love you equally, no less than him."

"No one loves me more than him." Shen Jingheng interrupted directly, "No one can surpass him."

Damn direct refusal.

This is Shen Jingheng, a man who will never give others any opportunity if he has identified his wife.

Obviously every word is like a needle poking at him, but Pei Yechen just loves his serious look.

"The flaw in your mind is me." Shen Jingheng grasped the key points keenly, "...I understand, the cerebral worm should infinitely magnify your desires and weaken your efforts to fight them, right?"

Damn smart man.

Pei Yechen didn't answer.

Shen Jingheng asked him a question: "Do you understand me?"

This question directly confused Pei Yechen.

"It should be...understood? You are serious about everything, very calm, and never panic."

"No, you don't understand." Shen Jingheng said frankly, "You only understand the part of me that you are willing to understand. My dark side is never shown to others, but this does not mean that I am hypocritical, but that I am using my kindness to make people around me feel more comfortable."

"I also hated the world of the Protoss. I think stupid people are hopeless. They will only call those who are working hard as waste, and they will only blame others forever. If a hero fails once, people will only be greedy for pleasure, have high demands on others, and forget what kind of dog they are." Shen Jingheng said these words bluntly, without shyness, "I even think that the death of the Protoss has nothing to do with me. I just live my present moment, and other people have nothing to do with me."

"Pei Yechen, people have selfish desires, everyone is afraid of death, everyone has something they want, and everyone wants to kill someone they hate for a second or two... Possessing malice and applying malice to others are two different things. What do you have to criticize yourself harshly? If one is to be executed for harboring malice, then all the Protoss deserve to die.”

【The author has something to say: The deleted part in the previous chapter may affect reading a little... Forget it. Anyway, only few people read the chapter hahahaha, thanks to the little cuties who are still supporting _(:з"∠)_ Can you comment if you are interested? I will be super motivated!】

t/n: That's all for today, thank you for reading!