Ch21 - He must be in pain

There was a moment of silence in the mechanical room.

Then Lu Xingwang replied to her, “No.” 

Wen Sheng wasn’t relieved at all when she received such an answer. She had been staring intently at Lu Xingwang, so when she asked this question, she swore that Lu Xingwang paused and hesitated. Even if it was only for a short moment, it still existed.

Someone walked into his heart.

What kind of person could do what they couldn’t do?

Wen Sheng said, “May I ask another question, what kind of person does Your Highness like?” 

Lu Xingwang stood in front of the mechanical platform with no expression on his face. “Young Lady Wen is making laugh. What qualifications do I have to love someone with a disabled like this?”

So, it wasn’t that there was no one, but you just didn’t want to delay others?

Wen Sheng became a little angry. “Your Highness is quite self-aware.”

“Your Majesty intends to bestow me a marriage with the crown prince.” Wen Sheng clenched her teeth secretly and let out a soft snort. “If I marry the crown prince, I may be the future empress and your sister-in-law in the future.”

Lu Xingwang replied indifferently, “Congratulations.”

“You…” said Wen Sheng.

She was very sad. She didn’t know why, but she was very sad. Her heart was so stuffy that she couldn’t breathe, it felt sore and painful.

The pampered eldest young lady raised her head high as if trying to find a place for herself and said angrily, “It’s our engagement that I’m about to break with Your Highness. Your Highness’ face is ruined and you’ve lost your divine power. You’re unworthy of me.” 

In fact, the moment she said it, she regretted it.

But when she fixed her gaze on the youth, she met Lu Xingwang’s surprisingly calm eyes. The teenager nodded indifferently and said, “I wish Young Lady Wen a bright future.”

Wen Sheng’s tears streamed down on her cheeks with a sudden swish.

The feeling of not being, she was like a deserter even if she won. 

At this moment, she knew that her youth was officially over. From now on, the two of them would be strangers to each other.

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At the door, a black-haired youth with a luggage bag walked in and drank water under the tree vines.

Jian Mei walked down the ladder in small steps, shouting with some excitement, “Brother!”

The youth who was drinking the water froze. He turned his head to look at the figure running from the pharmacy and his face gradually serious. When Jian Mei was about to approach him, Jian Changjia almost got choked on the water.

When Jian Mei approached him, he met his brother’s in disbelief gaze. “Why are you here?” 

“Dad sent me here.”

“Why didn’t he tell me anything when I called him?” Jian Changjia’s face changed. It was unknown what he was thinking of, but his expression became colder. He cursed in a low voice and was about to call Father Jian back.

Jian Mei was a little at a loss. “Brother…”

When Jian Changjia turned around, the obvious scars on his neck were completely seen. Unline Jian Mei, who was raised by his parents like a white porcelain doll, Jian Changjia who was his older brother wasn’t so lucky. When his parents took Jian Mei to the hospital for treatment, Jian Changjia who was left alone with his nanny, accidentally rolled down the stairs. The accident left a scar from his chin to his collarbone, the large area of dark gray marks spread densely, looking like withered branches and terrifying. 

Jian Changjia glared at his younger brother while holding his phone to make a call. “You’re so annoying, don’t follow me!”

Jian Mei hurriedly stopped and stood cautiously a few steps away from his brother.

Not far away, Jian Changjia who was on the phone with Father Jian and seemed to be in some quarrel. It was probably because he didn’t tell him in advance that his brother was also here, and how he could go back and so on.

Jian Mei squatted by the well to wash vegetables in the courtyard. 

Jian Changjia walked in large strides back to the vine courtyard to put down his luggage. Before he could turn around, he almost bumped into Jian Mei. He paused and said to him with some blame, “What are you doing behind me?”

Jian Mei was hit on his nose. He lowered his head to cover his red nose, then he raised the cucumber. “Brother, do you want to eat fruit?”

“……”

Jian Changjia didn’t take the cucumber, but instead, he put down his luggage and bent down. He asked hesitantly, “Where did you get hit?” 

Jian Mei raised his head and his round eyes came into contact with his eyes. Due to the distance, he could look at his brother very clearly. His eyes fell on the particularly conspicuous terrible scar and his gaze paused for a moment.

Jian Changjia’s eyes turned gloomy. He turned his face away to prevent him from seeing it. “You deserved to be bumped, who let you walk without watching where you’re going.”

Jian Mei took the small cucumber and followed him step by step and said softly, “Are you hungry? The cucumber that Aunt Li gave is sweet. There should be some food in the kitchen. I’ll go get it for you.”

Jian Changjia was annoyed. “Eat a fart,  I’m leaving.” 

While the eldest and the youngest were entangled here, the old man who had been taking a nap in the living room went downstairs. After all, the older, the wiser, he subdued his grumpy brother with a few words.

Jian Changjia didn’t leave, but he still added, “Anyway, I won’t live in the same room with Jian Mei.”

Jian Mei stood by the small bench, feeling a bit wronged.

The old man sighed. “If you don’t want to live, then don’t live with him. Go to the room on the second floor to sleep and you go to get the key on the drawer for your brother.” 

“Oh, okay.”

“I don’t need him, I’ll take it by myself.”

Jian Changjia seemed unwilling to stay with his younger brother at all, he carried his backpack and entered the house. His figure from behind was emotionless. Jian Mei sat on the small bench while holding his phone. He had always been unable to hide his worries, but unfortunately, he had no friends to share his worries with. The pitiful Lu Xingwang became a trash can for his worries. His small mouth blabbered continuously, and almost blew up Lu Xingwang’s communication terminal.

After a while, Lu Xingwang replied to him. [Why does he hate you?] 

Jian Mei propped his chin and replied to Lu Xingwang with a sigh. [My father said that after I came home from the hospital for treatment, I slept in the house that day. My brother came back from school to see me because no one in the family told me about the accident that happened to my brother. I was sleeping in a daze and when I saw the person with a terrible scar beside my bed, I was so frightened that I cried.”

He should’ve said something very excessive when he wasn’t clear-headed.

Ever since then, Jian Changjia had treated him like a stranger and with hostility and never gave him a good face again.

“I want to apologize to my brother, but he doesn’t want to talk to me.” 

“I don’t know how to get along with my brother.”

“He seems to hate me very much.”

A chain of messages was displayed on the communication terminal. Lu Xingwang’s dark eyes were serene and deep. He leaned against the cold mechanical table. The youth’s slender fingers tapped on the table on repeat. As a matter of fact, he didn’t really mind. Even if Wen Sheng mentioned his appearance to him, there wasn’t the slightest ripple in his heart. However, when Jian Mei said that he was scared to tears by such scars, for some reason, he minded it.

There was a moment of silence. 

Eventually, Lu Xingwang asked him, “Do you mind those scars?”

It was always easier for people to open up and tell the truth to strangers they had never met.

Jian Mei propped his chin and thought carefully for a while then he replied, “I mind.”

Like a pot of cold water was poured on his whole body, Lu Xingwang’s tapping fingers paused. His dark and calm eyes looked at the short words on the communication panel for a moment, and it was as if his heart was suddenly stabbed with a sharp needle. He silently closed the communication panel, but for a long time, he didn’t move. He just stood still quietly, as if he was digesting some emotions. Not only he did mind it, he even felt sadness after a long time. 

It was funny to say. Why should he pin his hopes on others? Wasn’t this what he thought to Jian Mei?

Why did he mind it?

Everyone cared about ugly scars, so why should he ask others to accept them?

Lu Xingwan’s heart gradually turned cold, and a sarcastic smile appeared on his lips. When he stepped forward to leave the room, the communication terminal vibrated again and again. 

……

He would just look at it one last time.

He hesitated for a moment. In the end, he clicked on the chatbox and saw Jian Mei’s message. “How could I not care? Every time I see the scars, I think that he must have been in a lot of pain.”

“I feel sad every time I think of this.” Jian Mei was a little clumsy but he still took his conjecture seriously. “I feel very distressed.” 

Lu Xingwang stood on the edge of the console. The youth’s hand holding the table turned pale due to his force. As he looked at the message from the screen of the communication terminal, a strange feeling gushed out of his heart. It was very strange but very warm.

After the accident happened, too many people looked at him with strange eyes. There was disgust, pity, and even blame. No one cared about his feelings and no one cared how painful he felt. There was no shortage of people who hit him when he was down or mocked him.

He was like a powerful beast that could only find an uninhabited corner to lick its wounds when it was injured. Its natural enemies were looking for any opportunities to kill him. The followers in his territory only cared about whether he could become stronger and properly display his value and role. Otherwise, he would become an outcast, people would withdraw from his marriage and be abandoned.

However, at this moment— 

A silly and naive small animal ran up to him and asked intently whether his wounds were painful.

This feeling…

Feels really amazing.