Transmigrating into the Cannon Fodder White Moonlight

Chacha was speechless. One of her biggest reasons for watching anime was to indulge herself in the voice of various outstanding voice actors whose voice could make people unable to close their legs. When she heard Jiao Yushi’s voice, her favorable impression for him rose sharply. It’s no wonder that even though his face was always cold and his temperament was very bad, he was still popular.

　　Her two pretentious friends stopped walking.

　　Seeing Jiao Yushi, Yao Yiyi wasn’t feeling very well. Prince Jiao shouldn’t be able to hear the words she said before, right? That would be too embarrassing.

　　Lu Ruoruo immediately lowered her head, trying to rein in the smugness that she felt. Just now, it was only her who did not utter a word. If Prince Jiao asked, she could answer that she’s just forced to tag along and put on a pitiful look.

　　Ning An who heard the noise outside came out to check. Seeing that the school belle and the school prince were confronting each other, she stood silently by the door and watched them. She wasn’t a gossiper. It’s just that when she heard Jiao Yushi’s word, she knew he was helping her. That’s why she stayed.

　　”How is it your business?” Chacha raised her chin and looked at Jiao Yushi provocatively.

　　After throwing the provocation, she tried to pull her hand back. However, she was unable to take her hand out of his grip and instead just made Jiao Yushi gripped tighter. He said, “Of course it’s my business. As a normal person, seeing my classmate being bullied, isn’t it natural to help her?”  

　　Ceh, Who knew how long you’ve been standing here and listening. So why is it only now you speak of wanting to help others? Why didn’t you [formal] go in to help in the first place? Could it be that because there were just women inside you [formal] find it embarrassing? Bullshit. Chacha secretly cursed him. Furthermore, feeling her wrist slightly aching, she inwardly started to feel a bit alarmed. 

　　This wasn’t her fault.

　　There were only two things that existed in Jiao Yushi’s world —— Interesting things and boring things.

　　He, like the majority of novels’ male lead, had a miserable childhood which then caused some defects to his character. He was extremely cold-blooded. In the early stage, he was like this towards everyone. Later on, he was only nice towards the female lead.

　　His mother was very attractive and ambitious, but she came from an ordinary family. Later on, she fell in love with his father, and one time, she schemed to sleep with him. After she successfully became pregnant, she didn’t tell anyone about this matter, and stealthily gave birth to the child. Only when he was three years old that his mother ran to his father’s and spoke of this matter. His father didn’t take his mother and him seriously at all and drove them away.

　　He [JYS] was just a tool his mother used to get a superior life. When the tool lost its value, he also lost the motherly love that was already very scarce to begin with. His mother believed that her failure was all because of him. His existence destroyed her life. He made her lost the opportunity to marry others. Therefore, he was often beaten and scolded by his mother.

　　He couldn’t cry, couldn’t laugh, couldn’t speak, couldn’t make any expression. Otherwise, he would be locked in the wardrobe. Grieving alone in the narrow darkness. At that time, he was too young. He couldn’t resist the inevitable humiliation and harm from his mother. As a result, he became unable to express his sorrow through words and expressions.

　　When he was seven years old, he went out to rummage through a trash can because he was too hungry. He then was kidnapped by human traffickers and was sold to a remote mountain village. The young him even sorrowfully thought that being kidnapped and sold was pretty good. However, rural people didn’t know that a child’s psychology could also suffer from illness [AKA mental illness like trauma, etc].  They only thought that he was a quiet retarded child that couldn’t cry or laugh. The family who bought him felt that they had lost money and hated him very much. They beat and scolded him every day. The neighbors thought he was stupid and often used a number of very despicable means to tease him. Things like deliberately pushing him into the gutter, throwing firecrackers to his feet, and throwing rubbish on him were not unusual. 

　　He still couldn’t rebel. Otherwise, the people who bought him and the parents of the child who bullied him would come together and beat him. Who let him be a fool. The people who bought him originally felt that they had lost money, yet he still stirred up trouble. They couldn’t let out their hate if they did not beat him.

　　After he understood these, if there’s someone bullying, he would immediately dodge away. Avoiding them as far as possible.

　　He had no ability to express his emotion and far more mature than the children of the same age. His mentality was also a bit twisted. There were times when the words he spoke could make people feel frightened. With his indifferent expression, he did not look like a child at all. As a result, the villagers all thought that he might be some kind of demon. From bullying him, they changed to hiding away from him or shouting “fool” and “lunatic” from afar.

　　Gradually, even his sadness dulled.

         When he was eleven years old, his father discovered that his body had a defect and he might not be able to have a descendant. Hence, his father finally thought of him. After a few years of spending manpower and material resources, he finally found him. That time, his heart that’s quickly dying, suddenly had a glimmer of hope. Thinking that there are still people who could love him, who look forward to his existence. After all, he didn’t remember anything from when he was three years old. Therefore, he didn’t know that his father had abandoned him once.　

　　When he arrived at the vast and magnificent mansion, he saw his father and grandparents. Before he could say anything, he heard them laugh and said, “We’ve retrieved him. It’s good, our family has an heir now.” Even though he was young, he could discern a kind of cold indifference from them.

　　He felt that he was only retrieved back by them because they needed an heir. He couldn’t even summon the feeling of sorrow.

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　　Afterward, he met his mother several times. His mother’s attitude towards him was much better and her eyes were glittering. However, his heart had turned cold. 

        The family was very strict with him, but there’s no feeling of love whatsoever in there.

　When she was reading the novel, Chacha felt that a person like Jiao Yushi couldn’t fall in love with anyone. His humane feelings had been reduced to ashes during his childhood. The him at present was only dressed in human skin to disguise himself as a living human.

　　Even though he once liked Chen Chacha, afterwards it was Ning An that he became lovers with. However, his ‘love’ was only something above admiration and beneath like and love.

　　He dote on Ning An very much and grant whatever she asked for, to the extent that a certain Chacha thought that if one day the female lead said in a spur of a moment“Let’s murder someone for fun”,  he would immediately come up with a detailed plan the next day. However, this kind of doting and indulgence were very superficial. It merely came from his shallow and feeble interest.
　
　　From the very beginning, Chacha didn’t have any intention to provoke this weirdo. Only a ghost would know whether in a moment of excitement, he would want to see what kind of expression she will make in the moment of death, then break into her house in the middle of the night to strangle her in her bed.

　　However, if she acted terrified at this moment, how could she lead her female underling into a school overlord and walk to the peak of bullying the female lead?

　　Besides, she’s a villain. If she died then she died. No one would grieve for her and she wouldn’t let anyone down. Only people who had nothing to worry about could truly be fearless.

　　Moreover, if she truly died, she wouldn’t die completely before the time rewind itself. If something like this happened, she could also conveniently experience the feeling of death. She’d like to ask, who could die and come back to life? In this world, this is the only “special honors”.

　　”He he.” Chacha sneered and said, “Normally, there were many times when Classmate Ning An was bullied, so why have I never seen you lend a hand?”

　　”Isn’t it because I’ve never come across it before?” Jiao Yushi had an expression of  ‘I also don’t want to be like this’. Although it was very faint, his face clearly divulged this out.

　　Chacha: …..

　　Ning An was shocked. She was often surrounded by students taunting her. Occasionally, Jiao Yushi would run across them, but he would just pass by as if he hadn’t seen them. And this time, he actually said he had never seen such a situation??? How could someone be so shameless to this extent?

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　　However, she knew that this time Jiao Yushi was truly helping her, so she didn’t expose him.

　　Chacha: “Then what do you want?”

　　”Give back the money to Ning An.” Jiao Yushi lightly said.

　　Chacha inwardly thought, this time’s mission was completed and keeping these few money was also useless and even cumbersome, giving it back to Ning An wasn’t a bad choice. As for whether or not Jiao Yushi would invite Ning An to a meal and increase their feelings?  It’s none of her business. She had finished playing her part. This was also a good chance to test whether the story had to go according to the novel or she only had to fulfill her role in the plot.

　　However, she wasn’t in the mood to give back the money so directly.

　　And just at this moment, the students on duty from the neighboring class poked their head out to look.

　　Chacha glanced at them and they immediately hid behind the back door with guilty conscience.

　　Chacha said, “returning the money? What’s the basis of giving back the money as soon as it’s borrowed?

　　Ning An whispered, “But I didn’t want to lend it to you. You snatched it from me.”

　　The students next door popped their heads out again and Chacha glanced at them again.

　　Chacha saw them pull their head back. Then, she looked back at Ning An with impatience as if she disliked such an inelegant and shameful girl. Then she threw the money that she took from Ning An to her face and said, “Heh, such little money, it’s far from enough for me. What a cheapskate, looking for you to borrow such a few amounts? bullshit.”

　　Inwardly, Jiao Yushi was a bit amazed. Usually, Chen Chacha was a very proper girl  and she would not say a word like “bullshit”.

　　Ning An looked at the money that scattered all over the ground with pursed lips. Her face looked like she’s a bit humiliated. However, her money was back and it was better than nothing. Her family circumstances weren’t good and they spent money frugally. In other people’s eyes a hundred yuan may not be many, but it could keep her alive for a week.

　　Ning An thought to herself, just bear with it. Then she squatted down to pick up the money. 

　　Jiao Yushi saw it all but he didn’t even glance at Ning An and said, “apologize to Ning An.”

　　Chacha: “What if I don’t want to?”

　　Jiao Yushi: “Then, don’t think of leaving today.”

　　Chacha was speechless. In the story, even though Jiao Yushi knew of this matter, he didn’t show up to help Ning An. Why does he become so troublesome today?

　　”Apologize? Why should I apologize?” Chacha flung her hand in anger. She wanted to pull her hand out of his grip in one graceful swing and then elegantly leave. 

　　Who would have expected that his hand was like a crab pincers. It clamped her wrist and couldn’t be easily shaken off.

         Although a bit embarrassed, Chacha was very calm. Since she couldn’t pull her hand out, she took the opportunity to raise her hand and said, “Classmate Jiao Yushi, why are you keep holding onto my hand? Are you molesting me? Or do you think because you are so handsome and smart, no matter who, they have to fall in love with you? That’s why you’re holding the wrist of someone who had nothing to do with you?